Frustrated

...not! Ok I am happy Arsenal won (again! yippie!) last Saturday night, and it was a good game. 4 - 1 versus Portsmouth. See, I told you it would make me not so pissed when they play, but today is Monday and I am kinda bummed. Ok maybe not bummed, just a lil mad. A lil. A teeny tiny bit maybe. *sigh* Anywho, as for Arsenal winning, I am fairly happy. :D And they have another game on Wednesday (that would be Thursday morning for me) vs Celtic for the UEFA Championship qualifier. I hope they win. Bad. :) Arsenal video here. :D


And owh, I have learned something new over the weekend. :D Ok I know it's not new anymore but I have been wanting to learn but just got held back a bit. I learned how to do a fishtail braid and a rope braid. I am uber happy. :D Altho I still can't do a french fishtail braid (yet) but I am learning. And my hair looks so crappy with the rope braid. Cause I just have this crazy lil hair and shits that goes everywhere. I tried it on my sisters hair, and it. Looked. Good. YAY! New things to do with my very long, and crazy hair! So anyway, it is raining elephant and dinosaurs out there and I left the umbrella in the car. Stupid really. But they said it wasn't gonna rain. Next time I should listen to my inner conscience. I better prep for a wet journey to the car...not looking forward to it. *sigh*

Imagine having to endure the freezing cold rain like this, poor thing

** Oh I was listening to some songs I have on my laptop for centuries that are gathering dust (ahaha...gather dust?) and I was like her I haven't listen to this song in a freakin' long time, and I think it just brought me back to my lonely days, I feel lonely today. Listening to To you I belong by B*witched**

Saturday

*photo from here*

Can you say pissed much? Yes I am. It started cherry but now I feel like I was gutted in the stomach. Really? Hate much? Yes, but you can't really get angry at someone for that long of a time right? Wrong, I am gonna be uber ego and drag this on for days...really. Am pissed. Really..........

Arsenal is playing tonight so that oughta be good. Can't wait. At least I won't stay angry that long. Hmphhh.

Piece of the week: Marche Slave

As you know I am a part of an orchestra (ok maybe 2 orchestras) but I love my classical orchestra. (Yes I play in an orchestra). I play the violin. :) I have been playing since I was 10 (that's actually very late to start playing the violin) but that doesn't matter. I got the chance that ultimately got me where I am in the orchestra today, playing for the Sarawak State Symphony Orchestra or SONS.


I started playing the violin when I was in elementary school. Actually I didn't know how it all started. It is a long story but I'll try to keep it short :P. There was a time in my life when I had to move around a lot, since my parents were teachers. And one fortunate event lead me to study abroad (ok my dad was studying abroad not moi but I suppose I was studying abroad too :D but in elementary school hehehe) and it brought me to Menomonie, Wisconsin. :) I loved the place. It is a small town (is it a town now still?) and everyone is friendly. :D Good first impression.


Well you know how it is, they encourage you to embrace your identity (ok I might just made that up) but they were talking about being in a band or orchestra. It was either band or orchestra. :D I was really interested in learning the drums or percussion but I think I was persuaded by friends to join the orchestra. (Ok maybe I always thought being a violinist was awesome :P) so that's how it all started. And the rest is history...or herstory :P *geddit*



Anyway, I was thinking of sharing the piece that I think are really interesting (and that interest me) of the week. :D I play twice a week (for my classical orchestra) and twice a week (now to be once a week) for my jazz orchestra. Yes I play jazz too but I'm not very good.


So this week Piece of the week (POW) is Marche Slave by Tchaikovsky. I love this piece, altho it is a tad bit difficult but practice makes perfect, right? ;) I am gonna practice summore.

Awesome

I. Am. Fuckin'. Awesome.

Really.

I couldn't believe myself.

There is a story behind this (promise) but I am too tired and sickly to tell you now, but I am. Pretty. Awesome. :D




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Ok, I said I was awesome, so I am. :P I need to indulge in self-vanity once in awhile. So anyway, it has something to do with yesterday (Monday evening, in case yesterday is confusing). :D I was pretty pissed off cause the lightning struck our router so that means no internet, and no YoVille :P. Ahahah...I think I am hooked on that game =_='''. So anyway, after a frustrating hour of trying to connect but then I realize there was no connection, I went on playing my Farm Frenzy 2!! I love that game :P.


So, I walked out of the office late (like by 5 minutes) and I was frantically trying to think where I parked the car. (Yeah sometimes I am so paranoid that my car is missing :P, I hope that never happens) and I saw there was this orange-ish car that double parked me. Actually that asshole blocked my car! I was like what. The. Hell? How am I going to get out? Ok, first I thought, if he is double parking that means he is close or/and somewhere near right? (That's what CLK thought). I thought so too. After starting up the car to give that asshole a signal that I AM ABOUT to leave, I waited for about 5-10 minutes for that person to get a clue. Unfortunately, the so called asshole wasn't anywhere near his car. Nor was he 50 feet from his car. I was like. What. The. Fuck! Like seriously, I had to go home and get change and go to my jazz orchestra rehearsal.


I was sitting there thinking I have to have a second plan to get out of this parking space in case the dude would not be around to move his fucking car. So then, I got and idea. I. am. Awesome. Fortunately the parking space next to mine was empty (thank God!!) and I was thinking,

'Hmmm, this car is small enough to do 3-points turning to actually use the empty lot to actually squeeze out of the parking lot.' This might work! Brilliant idea I say.


So I don't know if there was anyone around to watch my spectacular escapade or be amazed at what I did (cause they should because I rocked!) but I know there was this one lady and her son in a car just a few feet from mine. And I bet she saw the whole thing. How I manage to squeeze out of the parking space by doing the logical thing I can think of. I thought I saw the boy point at me and telling his mom something. I wasn't paying attention cause I was hoping I wouldn't scratch the fucker's car (wish I did, serves him right).


I manage to get out after reversing-forward-reverse-shit.I hope I don't hit his car.-reversing-forward and I got out. Aren't I amazing?? I. Totally. Am. Yesserie. :D

Too bad I didn't have anyone take a video of my escapade :P

Epic

It is just. Fucking. EPIC. Can you believe it?? Arsenal (on its first game of the season) won 6 - 1 vs Everton. Epic I tell ya. I am happy. *roll on my back and wants my tummy rub, like a kitty cat* (Cheshire smile **___________________________________** )

Our 5 goal scorers from last night are (yes 5, Fabregas scored twice ^^):

First goal was from Denilson, was an awesome goal, didn't think it would go in :D.


Second goal was from their new defender, Thomas Vermaelen, awesome header,


third goal was also from the defender, William Gallas, who is known to head home goals on occasions.


Fourth and fifth goal was from (the very cute and awesome) captain Cesc Fabregas. :D


Their last and also important goal was from Eduardo, who was out for 1 year last season from a broken leg, it was a cute goal but it was a goal that counts. :D Epic I say.



Altho the other team manage to score 1 goal (from Saha) it was an epic game anyway. Happy. :D Read the story here, and the video here.

Let the countdown begin

Everton vs Arsenal 1230 pm, Sunday morning (1730 hours London time)

Mood swings, yeah it's that time of month

I get effin- mad during this time of month. I get upset, I cry (yes I cry over stupid lil things), I get pissed off by little mistakes, I get really pissy and I always seem to throw it all at CLK. I sometimes get upset with him, even tho it was clearly nothing to be upset about. I get 'irrational'. (Yes I know, I admit I'm irrational when I'm upset, or I'm upset and get irrational, but I can't help it.) Yes. I. Can't help it. I get pissy, I cry- a lot. Sometimes it makes me feel a lot better about myself. Other times, I just get more upset.


But you know sometimes I just needed that someone to not try to understand why I'm upset. Just let me be. (OK I don't want to let me 'be' I need someone to give me hugs and tell me everything is going to be OK.)

(What? I just want some lovin'.)

Clearly, sometimes that message don't come across. It sometimes come across as 'leave-me-fuckin'-alone-I-don't-want-to-talk-to-you-now'. Which really sucks. I do admit it's a mistake in my part. But that's ego talking. I don't wanna go, 'please hold me, I want you to make it all better'. Sissy. But really, that's what I'm saying. *sigh*


CLK always seems to be optimistic about things. Like now, I'm in my PMS-ing state, really annoying if you ask me. If I was my boyfriend I'd really be annoyed. But no. He's like all 'I know you're in your mood swing, pms thing so I think I need to leave you alone'. Like what? So cool. I mean, yeah I'm in my PMS thing but I don't want to be alone. :( *pout* And yes, I am being difficult. I am being irrational. I am being stupid. But I don't want to be alone. What am I talking about? I don't know. Sometimes I don't get myself. Being irrational. *sigh*


I don't want to be irrational. (Yes I am definitely IRRATIONAL) but sometimes I can't help myself. Sometimes I feel like yapping and biting peoples' heads off (mostly CLK cause I talk to him a lot and he happens to trigger my irrational mode when I'm upset (which usually happens over idiotic things he say or I just feel like he don't want to talk to me) which is, irrational). See? I don't understand myself. *spins round and round* I'm upset, can't you tell? (and I have no idea what's the point of this post)


I need a rest and clear my mind. Oooo, orchestra practice tonight, yummy. Mind-clearing time.

*psst, PMS survival tips*