The only exception

I think as of late I've been feeling paranoid and kinda irrational, whiny, and all over the place. I am not the person who likes to talk about emotions without getting emotional but I just can't...I don't know how. How can you pour your heart out to someone who isn't physically there? You can't touch them or see how their facial reaction. I am not good with this talk to me so we can resolve these issues kinda thing. It is just hard for me to do. *sigh*

I don't know if I am just being paranoid or what but I feel like I am just pulling away from the people I love, bottle up inside. I get hurt and I don't want others to get hurt too. I am feeling a lil stress, and confused and kinda ignored. That's just how I feel. Like I am not there...I am not whole. Just listening to this song makes me feel better but sad, it is a beautiful song. Altho to me it is a sad song, mopey, I hate being mopey.


The Only Exception - Paramore


When I was younger I saw my daddy cry
and curse at the wind.
He broke his own heart and I watched
as he tried to reassemble it.

And my momma swore
that she would never let herself forget.
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love if it does not exist.

But Darling,
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

Maybe I know somewhere
deep in my soul
that love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways
to make it alone.
Keep a straight face.
And I've always lived like this
keeping a comfortable distance.
And up until now I had sworn to myself 
that I'm content with loneliness.

Because none of it was ever worth the risk.

Well you are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

I've got a tight grip on reality,
but I can't let go of what's in front of me here.
I know you're leaving in the morning 
when you wake up.
Leave me with some kind of proof its not a dream.

You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

I'm on my way to believing
And I'm on my way to believing